"Mysterious" speaks of things we don't understand (hence the root word being 'mystery'...) and things that we cannot fathom. This is precisely the manner in which God works, or at least I know it is how He works in my life. Lately I have been so very confused about the things that I am supposed to be learning from God in my life. There are so many things that are happening in ways that other's would see as coincidence; yet, I know its God. Do I know what exactly He's doing or trying to show me? Heck no. If I did that would take away this whole "mysterious" aspect. Even though I know that He is working for my good, some days I wish there was no mystery. I wish I knew the way everything would happen, but I look at that and realize that if I did that, it would be the furthest thing from what I want and what I am supposed to do. That's ultimately a selfish act. To worry so much about the future and what God has in store for me that I give up today. The amazing quality time that He has given me. Right. Now.
This leads me too another thought that hit me again the other day. I say again, because this is something that I have known for a while; however, I don't always do it. God is at work in my life all the time. This is something that I'm pretty sure I have been taught for like 20+ years now (for those of you who know how old I am, you can figure it out). God is showing up and showing me Himself and what He wants for me in ways that I can perceive, but I don't see it. Do I not see it because God operates in some dimension that is outside of our realm known as "the real world"? No! God operates in our world. On the same plane of existence as ourselves. The reason I don't see what He is doing in my life all the time or what He wants me to learn is because I don't take time to stop and listen enough. All I have to do is pay attention to things going on around me in more detail and explore (through prayer and the Word) if some of the things that are happening could be from God. If I just take the time to remember He is always working, and then just listen, I will hear and see what He is doing in my life.
I did this the other night. I listened to God. I prayed and listened to Him in my car driving back to school. My prayers where not long, and where often full of questions. Most of this time I just spent keep my eyes, ears, and mind open to what God would have me learn. While I didn't get any specific answers at all, He did give me on thing; Peace. I cannot remember the last time I experienced peace as did during this time of prayer in my car. God let me let go of the worries and anxieties that I was clinging to and just be. Just be the Man of God he created me to be, focusing on Him, relaxing, and knowing that He will take care of my troubles. One of my friends shared a Bible verse with me about peace the other night:
"Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you." - 2 Thessalonians 3:16
God gave me His peace, and it was amazing. I pray that I will learn how to experience His grace more and more fully. I was not understanding what God was going to do in that time of prayer (it was a mystery), but by paying attention to Him and listening He should me how amazing prayer and peace are.
I pray that I will now continue to pray like this and that I will always be looking for how God is working in my life everyday.
-Matt
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